Hi NBrito, the reasons for ending a marriage and the best time to do that are always complicated, especially with kids, or when you have no education, no family around, no money, and no support network (because you also just left the cult like church you were a member of). I'll write more on that later, but not today. You are correct that I was always waiting for other people (men) to rescue me. That kind of conditioning takes a long time to change. The incident in this essay happened well over a decade ago and I'm just now writing about it.