Mark, I'm happy you are starting to disentangle all the threads of your life's story (as much as you can while accepting that much you will never know for sure). It's great you have therapy as a support because this work you are doing is hard. I salute you and hope this journey brings you more of what you want and need (peace, clarity, understanding, self-compassion and love, or whatever you need and want the most). Thank you for sharing. Keep going. Keep writing.