Oh man, Louise...seems we have not only the same reason to quit writing but also the same reason to start again. I have read Anne Lamott's Bird by Bird and loved it. What book of hers would you recommend that's not specifically about writing? I understand the feeling of "dripping with children" as Glennon Doyle says. Mine are teenagers now but I very well remember having four in diapers at the same fucking time. You may relate to my essay How to become a more selfish parent: https://medium.com/a-parent-is-born/how-to-become-a-more-selfish-parent-1a59c19b71bb