Thank you, Sanjay. What you say feels fitting to me. I appreciate especially this sentence: "I sought being for being's sake because it's my only refuge." This is helping me reframe how I think about doing vs being, because I consider doing my refuge and relief most of the time. I understand what you're saying about intense grief/suffering/loss forcing us to alter our state from doing to being, although I have not experienced that kind of suffering. I am so sorry for what you have been through. Thank you for reading and sharing your experience. I appreciate it.